You ever get so sad that you can feel the weight of it? Ever have sadness so heavy hanging over you? Heavy like Maryland’s humidity that keeps you from drawing in a deep cleansing breathe to fill your lungs? A sadness so all-consuming that you’re always on the verge of tears? How about a sadness so pervasive you wish to escape? Feeling like you no longer want to be here?
Now, I don’t necessarily mean suicide, but maybe to just disappear. Like, give your spirit a chance to shed the burdens of the flesh. Be untethered. Soar around freely, as part of the atmosphere. Well, dear reader, that’s exactly how I am feeling as I sit here.
Certainly, I can share this with you. I know in how I feel I am not alone. At some point in time or another you have felt that way as well. At these times all I know to do is not let the world in. I’ve been overwhelmed and inundated, and I will do my best to create a problem free zone. No tv, no internet, no talk radio, no texts and no calls. Just walk away from it all, for the moment. Taking the time to be alone.
I’m going to take this much needed moment to pray in absolute silence. Call on my ancestors to ask them to watch over, guide, and protect me. As well as, ask the almighty to bless my home.
This world is changing. I know many can feel the shift. Can’t put my finger on it. Some things are just not right. I am trying so hard not to be pulled under. God, I need you to carry me. Please, I implore you, help me find a way to give my soul a much-needed lift.
Life’s burdens definitely could weigh on your life heavy. As you said, sometimes its good to just disconnect, re-center, refocus yourself. One thing we know is life will never stop happening, just how we react to it is how we press on.